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Moving On

Weeks went by with no response. My inbox stayed empty of emails from my father. No letters arrived in the mail. Kennedy called me one afternoon while I was folding laundry. She said she needed to tell me something. I asked what.

She said Diane had been ranting for days about being excluded from the pregnancy. She said my father mostly stayed quiet during these rants but that he looked sad. She said she thought he wanted to reach out but didn’t know how without admitting Diane was wrong. I asked Kennedy how she was doing. She said she’d signed the lease on her apartment and was moving out next weekend. She asked if Nathan and I could help her move. I said yes without hesitating.

My pregnancy progressed into the fourth month without the constant stress of my father’s manipulation. My doctor commented that my blood pressure was excellent. I started showing enough that strangers could tell I was pregnant. Nathan’s mother called every week to check in and ask how I was feeling. She never mentioned my father. She never asked if we’d heard from him. She just asked about me and the baby and if we needed anything.

At my anatomy scan, we found out we were having a girl. Nathan cried in the exam room while the technician printed pictures. I cried too but for different reasons. I was happy about the baby but sad that my father was missing this. Then I reminded myself that he was choosing to miss it.

Chosen Family

Nathan’s parents invited us over for dinner the following Saturday. We drove to their house in the suburbs, and Nathan’s mother answered the door with a huge smile. She hugged me carefully and asked how I was feeling.

I said, “Good,” and meant it.

Nathan’s father gave Nathan a hug and shook my hand then pulled me into a hug too. We sat down to eat, and halfway through dinner Nathan’s mother cleared her throat. She said they had something they wanted to share with us. Nathan’s father smiled and said they’d been working on a project. Nathan asked what kind of project.

His mother said they were converting their guest room into a nursery for when we visited with the baby. She pulled out paint samples from her purse and spread them on the table. She asked which colors I liked best. I stared at the samples and felt my throat get tight. She was asking my opinion. She was including me in decisions about my child. She was treating me like I was truly her daughter.

I pointed to a soft yellow and said I liked that one. She smiled and said that was her favorite too. Nathan’s father said they’d already ordered a crib and changing table. He said they wanted us to feel comfortable bringing the baby over anytime. Nathan reached under the table and took my hand. I squeezed it hard. The contrast between this warm inclusion and my father’s absence hit me like a physical thing, but sitting there with Nathan’s parents planning for our daughter I realized something. Chosen family could be just as real as blood. Maybe more real because it was based on actual care instead of obligation.

The Baby Shower

Kennedy and I met for coffee the next week to plan the baby shower. She brought a notebook full of ideas and was genuinely excited. We picked a date 6 weeks out and started making a guest list. She asked if I wanted to do a theme. I said not really. She said okay and wrote down no theme. We talked about food and games and decorations.

She mentioned she’d moved into her apartment over the weekend. I asked how it felt. She said weird but good. She said Diane had called her four times already trying to guilt her into coming back. I asked if she was going to. She said no. She said living on her own was the first time she’d felt like she could breathe in years. I told her I was proud of her. She looked surprised then smiled.

The baby shower happened on a sunny Saturday in May. Kennedy had rented a small event space and decorated it with yellow and white balloons. Nathan’s whole family came. My aunt drove in from 2 hours away. Freya brought her new boyfriend. My cousins came with their kids. Kennedy greeted everyone at the door and directed them to the food table.

I sat in a chair that Kennedy had decorated with ribbons and opened presents. Baby clothes and blankets and books and toys piled up around me. Nathan’s mother had bought us a stroller. My aunt gave me my mother’s baby blanket that she’d been keeping safe. Freya got us a year’s supply of diapers and said she’d calculated how many we’d need. Kennedy’s gift was last. She’d made a photo album with pictures of us from when we were younger, before Diane, before everything got complicated. I hugged her and she hugged me back hard.

No one mentioned my father, but I caught Nathan’s mother watching me during the gift opening with kind understanding in her eyes. She knew what it meant to celebrate without certain family members. She knew the bittersweet nature of joy mixed with loss.

When the party wound down and people started leaving, she helped me pack up the gifts. She asked if I was okay. I said yes and I meant it. I was surrounded by people who actually showed up for me. People who celebrated without conditions. People who loved without keeping score. That was worth more than blood relation. That was real family.